Sunday, May 08, 2011

My last Mothers Day as a 'mother'

I've been a mother for 30 years now. My youngest son is a senior in high school, so after his June graduation I won't have any 'children' at home. That is, no one under 18 that I am fully responsible for.

I find I am tremendously relieved. The load of guilt I've collected over the last 30 years will stop growing any larger. I won't have to second guess any more decisions I've made over the fate of another human being. They are all 3 now responsible for their own fates and while I may contribute to that fate, I'm not the person who will make it go one direction or the other anymore. Ultimately, they are in charge of their own lives. And I'm back to being responsible only for my own life. Woohoo!!!